So this is what it is to need
to hunger, to long, to feel an ache
grow inside as the strength recedes
the strength you once held for others’ sake.
So this is how to need, to turn
to those so accustomed to leaning on you
but how long does it take to learn
they will never come through for you?
And in an ideal world we’d take
turns bearing the world’s heavy weight
care for others’ as well as our own sake
but then, in our current state
the others are to weak to hold the strong
because the strong have supported them for too long.
In thinking too much of others,
though we redeem ourselves,
is it possible we then smother
them with their own wants of self?
And does our worthy sacrifice
only act to tend a rooted vice?
All I know is now they cannot see
passed their own noses, to my need.
How is it fair, how can it be
they do not even notice me bleed?
So this is what it is to need.